Look at the last post since August 2010, its has been 7 months since I last blogged. What have I been doing? Working working working and more working, sigh~

Anyway why did I blog today. Its because I did something really stupid that I felt so ashamed and embarrassing, well at the same time I regret it too.

Its always because of my appearance boys will stay away from me. My face, other than having dark eye circles, and a red nose now, I believe I should look rather normal but because I have a giant figure, it makes me looks like shit. Believe it or not, I really really dislike my body figure. Sigh~ I guess, it will be better off without having "ELEPHANT BOTTOMS" appearing in my life. But luckily, "ELEPHANT BOTTOMS" only appeared for 2 days, and I did not fall for him. Just missed the time whereby I feel like I'm dating. I guess probably if something like this happens again, firstly, show him my photos, and frighten him away, that way he will never ever be able to hurt me. This action has a disadvantage which is hurting & torturing myself.

I would rather HURT MYSELF then being HURT by HIM just because of how I LOOK!

SAD SAD SAD SAD~

woo~ feels like years since I last sung the National Anthem. Feels good and weird though.. Alright back to my life, been busy working for the past 3 days and NEVER take care of my diet plans. I was eating junk food for the past 3 days and including TODAY which makes it 4! Lets see what I did..

Saturday, 7 Aug
Wake up in the morning feeling like P Diddy~ SO NOT TRUE! Lols! I don feel like dancing that day.. @__@ anyway had breakfast of Cereal with Berries Yogurt Milk. Cool right?! Kellogg's Cereal and Magnolia Berries Yogurt Milk. That was like... 8-9am in the morning! BREAKFAST RIGHT!
Head out of house and to meet up with Christine. Woo~ Morning = happy time of the day <3
Anyway work starts at 12pm, and learned new things, I met it, "New Things". I can assure you that ARCADE JOB is SERIOUSLY BORING!! Really boring!! I was standing there, Day-dreaming half of the time as there's very little customers Early in the Morning. Scape is like, Town area so people needs time to travel everywhere. @_@
Lunch time had past and I HAD NOT TAKEN ANY LUNCH! I TELL YOU IM FREAKING HUNGRY TILL MY GASTRIC PAIN WORKS UP! Fuck! Though I drank water to help cools the acid in my stomach working up, still cant last and my *Lunch* was at.. 5pm. Sad me..
I had Double Soup Porridge, fried fish and slice fish.. nice too. Drank the hot soup for the start before eating the rice and fishes.. It really helps you know, Hot stuffs will kills the pain. ><"
Dinner skipped and that is it for the day. Sucks, tiring! Work all the way to 12am and that group of FREAKY Boys doesnt want to leave the arcade. Kept hanging around the KOF (King of Fighter) station. STUPID man. What's so NICE about arcade!!! Boo!!

Sunday 08 Aug
ANOTHER TIRING DAY T_T
Look at the clock, 8.50am.. I went back to sleep after setting the alarm clock to ring at 9am, BUT it did? or did not, I'm not sure just that I was Very Sure that I AM LATE for my 2nd day of work and had FORGOTTEN TO BRING UNIFORM, Fuck damn it! Seriously bad impression zzz.
My breakfast was Protein Bar from Xndo. Pathetic, hungry after it had hit 12pm.
Lunch was Chawamushi from Sake Sushi as the store was just opposite Arcade.
AND AND AND
What a Surprise from my Darling!!!! I love her! She's adorable, fun to disturb except that she's Rough, VERY ROUGH!!
Alright, not a surprise just that I had Forgotten about her *Surprise Attack* by dropping by in my work place. Mess up her hair is my favourite thing and she will come attack me! OMG Violent girl! Envy all my friends who are skinny. Sigh, I'm so fat T_T

3pm gotta head off to Serangoon Garden to work.. But before that, I bought 1 Taro turnover (Yam Pie) from Burger King. ALRIGHT I KNOW!!! It is fattening!!! More to come, I went into 303 Somerset, at B2 I bought Shini Tai Wan Chicken. YES I KNOW FATTENING!! And Old Chang Kee, 2 Sotong Sticks, I KNOW I KNOW FATTENING!! AND I ATE IT!! FATS!!!
Fuck u know! What's with those people creating this kind of nice food and WHY THE FUCK IS MY BODY UNABLE TO BURN OFF THOSE FREAKY CALORIES!!!

I eat, I scold myself, I torture myself, I hate myself for the reason of I WANT TO BE SKINNY AND YET I KEPT EATING JUNK FOOD. HA HA how to lose weight like that? You want to be XXXL and cant wear those nice dresses which fits BEAUTIFULLY on skinny figures. Envious of your friends for being able to wear and you DID NOT WORK HARD to achieve it at all.

Anyway, while working, I bought Xndo Cola from 7 Eleven, I ate my Fish Risotto from Xndo and shopped for Healthy stuffs like yogurt and Skimmed milk to make healthy breakfast for every morning and I also Bought 4 packets of OILY CHICKEN.

My supper was 2 drumsticks of OILY CHICKEN.

JUNK FOOD!

Monday 9 Aug
Breakfast was not made so I ate 2 slices of Sugi cake and a bowl of Curry Chicken from Xndo. My mom was right, I kept eating junk food. What's to lose? Your body cant even burn more than 2k of calories per day and you ate junk food since saturday! Seriously, FUCK YOU!

Went to work, and I ate 5 RING DONUTS! Not in a row but still I ATE 5 Donuts!
1 cup of Flicflock Peach Yogurt with Mango toppings. I really can eat.. T_T And a can of Xndo Cola again.. sigh.. That's it. You are fat for sure!!

Headed home and I was munching on Apple Focaccia, reached home and I ate Curry Rice while watching Tv. That was like 5 going 6pm. Bad news is I hate Red Bean Ice cream at 7 going 8pm and Fall asleep at 8 going 9pm..

GOOD JOB MY DEAR!!!
I'm being sarcastic to myself alright.

You know it just feel sucky when you looked into the mirror dressing in a 3XL clothings while in the next dressing room, your friends are dressing in L, M or S size. "I'm so ugly, fucking ugly!" That is what I told myself. I always knew that I have a nice voice which sometimes teachers and friends commented that they are high in pitch and when I speaks in a gentle manner, they tend to be like squeaky sound made by me. Sounds cute sometimes but it doesn't fit me! I can assure you that.

It is 0000 hours now and I have work tml at 12. Promised to meet Christine for a 'brain wash session' or 'studies on nutrition classes' at 1030 so I wouldn't be late for 1st day of work. And guess what I had today?
Morning, 2 bars of energy bars, 90 calories each, hope it really meant 90 calories only. A bite of banana and the rest wennt to my stupid dog tian tian after that went to school.

I have been wasting a lot of money on taxis bloody hell. And it is even harder to blog using phoney but I am LAZY to login my com and do blogging,. Seriously I would rather spend my time sleeping hahahaha. =="

Today is like shit! Went sch and it is National Day celebration @.@ lols no classes no nothing boring~ guess what, ITE college west has a cheer! "Heh there how do you do, college west we welcome you, H E L L O (x2) welcome to college west" omg @.@ so embarrassing yet fun thing to do. After that was national day performmances. I seriously miss dancing T.T should I go back for training? Sigh.

AS test omg! The whole event ends at 10am plus, most of us proceed to Hotel @ West for preparations. Drag and drag and drag till 4pm plus then my turn T.T walao change my surname to Tay can?!

Lunch was pretty filling. I had sandwich at 11pm and 3 was rich with chicken tight. Seriously I should not finish up the rice there I wont fill that full. And what a lame excuse to give when others ask you for help. Since you said that, I will try my best to give it back to you in the future. Speaks through your mind not your mouth alright? Relate that to myself too @.@ haha I'm not good either.. fine then.

We watched "Who is Salt?" Aye, is call SALT haha nice movie. Loved it, but the bound to have SALT 2 lols why? Cause the ending isn't there. Lols papaya milk shake was for dinner but I ended up eating more when I reached home. Regretted but forget it. I cant do anything either. Sleeping time ciaous